Today has been both eventful and uneventful... Fairly boring for most of the day - watching olymips for the morning, playing on D's website's arcade for half the afternoon. I baked some cookies with my brother, R (who's going to Sheffield Uni in Sept! Wow. Haven't quite worked out whether I'll miss him or not...) which are rather yummy! Mmm Auntie Ursula's Biscweets! Luckily I can eat them, despite my teeth being in awkward positions and covered in metal bits...

Then, as ever, I caved in and went on chat. H was there, talking to trollnose, who I think may be the same person as the other girl was... So I left that room shortly after entering it, but H followed me to the other room and that's where it all kicks off!
H had been reading his logbook messages apparently, finding my first one to him - eek! That must'a been 2 years ago by now, I was so strange back then ... But anyway, that got me to looking at mine -- some that really made me laugh - he told such bad jokes! But then he said he had loved me, but I hadn't loved him and therefore broke his heart (How dare he! Ughh he's the one who disappeared! =[ ) But apparently he still loves me now... I would love to believe him, but...I don't know whether I should let myself. He let me down before, and I don't want that to happen again because I was left thinking about it for aaaages afterwards. Like... aaages.
So I don't know. Do I trust him? Do I trust myself? Who knows...

Moving on, Results Day Tomorrow!! I'm so excited, I don't really know why, other than I expect to do well... My exams were all fairly good, so I will be so gutted if I get less than A in most things (Exc. English - that's probably my worst...) Hopefully I will get plenty of A*s too! Wow... I won't be able to sleep tonight. Of course, I'll be putting my grades on here!

For the past 9, soon to be 10 years, I've been getting horse riding lessons as my main birthday/Christmas presents and I really enjoyed going, but recently we've just been doing the same boring things over and over again...
I've said I want lessons again this year, but my mum brought up the fact that if I don't enjoy them any more, I should do something about it - either stop, or ask the instructor if we can do something different, or if I can have a lesson of my own, which would probably be more exciting...
I really wouldn't like to stop - I love the horses, and it's not as if the people are horrible and unfriendly, but I don't know if I can be brave enough to ask her about it, at least to let her know that I find it boring.
The next time I go will actually be on my birthday (Wow! 17!) so I will try to bring it up... Fingers crossed I can and it will get a result! My dad suggested getting the rest of the girls to do the same, but I think they're too busy talking amongst themselves and relaxing from all their hard work at the stables...
Saying that, it just occurred(sp?) to me that all of the girls are somewhat younger than me anyway, so maybe it would be better if I moved groups or got a private lesson going... We'll see.

Well, actually, we got home on Weds evening, 23:15 ish... So here's a kinda diary of my holiday!:
Had to get up half 6ish to get to the airport by 8 something or other, which wasn't as bad as it could've been. Got on the plane on time, then had to wait for an hour while they sorted out flight times or something (You'd've thought they'd already done that, wouldn't you??)
But anywho. The flight was fairly boring ( 4.5 hours with not even a film to entertain us!!). Got to Paphos, getting the car and driving to our villa was fairly easy... It was up a load of winding forking roads, so it was difficult for me dad to remember the way back up there once we'd been shown!
Villa was nice: pool of our own, big bathroom, satellite TV (Not that the channels were particularly good); but there were ants everywhere. We had to keep all the food in the fridge, so it was cold, but we lived.
Spent the first coupl'a days lounging around by the pool, trying to keep cool (by being continuously wet), and used a load of suncream! Thaat was worth it - I didn't get too badly sunburnt -- amazing!
I think it was the third day we went to the Baths of Aphrodite, which was basically a large pond-puddle kinda thing, but it was nice and cool and relaxing with the sound of water dripping. And there were a load of lizards around this area... not that there weren't many lizaards everywhere else, but y'know.
A few nights we went out to have a meal, which was quite nice. The first one we had a Local Mezze for 3 people, to feed 4, and it was far too much food... but it was yummy! We all now have a new favourite cheese in Halloumi! Mmm.
Around the restaurants there were a load of cats! Cats! How cute! I think they were strays, but it's a legend that some saint brought them to Cyprus to get rid of all the snakes, so the locals don't mind them.
On the last full day we went to Kato Paphos to look at some old mosaics... I didn't enjoy that much - too hot and not enough shade! But the mosaics were nice. Getting there was a nightmare though - I don't like it when my parents try to find their way around a strange city! Next year we need a car with a Satnav methinks.
Before the flight back we drove around a valley with rather nice scenery! And Moufflon(sp?)! Robin's now obsessed with them. But that got boring and there was no where to eat lunch so we went to the airport and ate there and sat around doing nonograms (or hanjies) for a bit. Flight was fine, but it was so cold when we got back!

Ooo and I just remembered the shooting stars! How could I forget?! We spent every evening lying on the deckchairs looking at the sky, watching for them -- they were so cool! Wooosh. I would go back just for them.


Anyway. Home. Slept. Watched some of the Olympics... Came on the computer. Spoke to H today... despite me being in a mood with him before I left (about the other girl he apparently likes and didn't tell me about), we acted as if we were still good friends... Im not entirely sure what I want to happen there, but I'm not going to dwell on it because it'll only make me unhappy. And we don't want that.

AND I've been invited, by T, to a summer party... He's in the year above me, and he's nice enough, but I don't really know any of his friends and they're all loud and bubbly and know each other so although I want to go, because I'm friends with T, I don't want to because I swear I have some sort of agoraphobia or something... And I'd just ruin it for myself, like I did at his Xmas party, by just sitting on the sofa just doing nothing. So I'm torn. I should, I would, but I don't particularly want to.

Well, it was all going well, and then I went back onto this chat after tea annnd then it wasn't. H seems to like some one else, who seems much less boring than me, so what chance do I have?
That's my day ruined then.

Holiday tomorrow though, get away from it all. Yay. We've spent most of today packing... I still think we're going to end up forgetting something though, but ain't that always the way!

Well, tonight H was on! And aww <3 He missed me too! Ahh I'm happy now. A stupid grin stuck on my face. Eee!